New Beginning

So, after such a long time, i finally summoned the courage to share what really happened the past few years of my life and maybe at the same time bless those who read it. I have never really gone into details about my journey coming to USM, changing course and all because at that time I didn't want people to see me in such a vulnerable, weak and helpless state.

Then recently, one of my close friends brought up this subject to me, and it was something that i had been contemplating on. Just as i was questioning whether i should or not, i came across this verse that i had stumbled upon a few days ago which did not mean much at that time. But reading it again brought a whole new meaning to me.

Psalm 40

⁵ Many, LORD my God,

are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us.

None can compare with you;

were I to speak and tell of your deeds,

they would be too many to declare.

⁶ Sacrifice and offering you did not desire—
but my ears you have opened^[c]—
burnt offerings and sin offerings^[d] you did not require.
⁷ Then I said, “Here I am, I have come—
it is written about me in the scroll.^[e]
8 I desire to do your will, my God;
your law is within my heart.”

⁹ I proclaim your saving acts in the great assembly;
I do not seal my lips, LORD,
as you know.
¹⁰ I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and your saving help.
I do not conceal your love and your faithfulness
from the great assembly.

¹¹ Do not withhold your mercy from me, LORD;
may your love and faithfulness always protect me.
¹² For troubles without number surround me;
my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
and my heart fails within me.
¹³ Be pleased to save me, LORD;
come quickly, LORD, to help me.

Hence, i decided to share a little bit of my experiences and the feeling that i felt during that period of time. Nonetheless, i must warn that one should always read with discernment because what may have worked out for me may not happen the same way for everyone. That is why we must be careful not to put God in a box and limit the way He may work.